Alright. So its been awhile. I've been busy will work, family, friends, animals...and so on.
Calipso had her litter Thursday morning (june, 7th). Three kittens, one we know for sure is a girl, she's the calico one. The other two we're not sure of yet.
Although, the little grey one passed away Saturday night. He/she/it just wasn't strong enough.
I have decided that I will be keeping one of the kittens. And the one I am keeping is named Jean-Claude (he also goes by Little Gremlin since he looks like one).
I'm not sure how I'm going to convince my parents that he will be living upstairs in my rooms. But I'll think of something.
I'm fully irritated with men right now. This may sound egotistical, but I've made a list of all the guys that like me/have liked me/want to date me. There are 50 of them.
Its kind of scary that I have that many choices.
There are a few that I'm deffently not interested in. But alot of them I am.
Its funny, I was talking to a very good friend of mine who I havn't seen in 2 years last night and I told him of this list and he asked if he was on it. I told him that yes he was, and he said that he should be on the top of the list (even though there is no top). I thought I was going to burst with joy when he said that. I've liked ( I mean really liked) this guy for 4 years. It took him moving to bloody PA. to realize that he likes me too.

But he is coming to visit next month. I'm so

My best friend has told us that if we don't do anything while he's here she's going to hold a gun to
his head. Yes, his head. Since it is him being stupid that we didn't date when he still lived here.
Ummmm.
The other man problames as of late have been that my best friend and my ex slept together. Making my life into a very crazy soap-opera/reality tv show.
I'm not mad at either of them though. I feel like I should hate them, or atleast feel some sort of anger at them. But I don't.
I've forgiven my best friend. Because no matter what, she's the only thing I have that keeps me sane nowadays. Him on the other hand I can't forgive, yet. Even though we're not together anymore, I still love him. And what kills me the most over it all is that he wouldn't sleep with me, he didn't even try to get me alone long enough for for then kissing. But he would go and *!@# my best friend? That is not something I can forgive easily. Nor something I'm likely to forget if we ever get back together.
I know he still loves me.
I talked to him the other day and told him that its a wonder that I was talking to at all, and thats its even more amzing that I still want to see him. He cried when I said that. He told me he really didn't want me to do that. I'm not sure if I could either.
I went and got my bellybutton pierced. Although you probably already know that from my new ID. My parents still don't know and I think my mom is going to have a cow when she does find out. My dad I'm not so sure of what he's going to do/say.
My brothers don't care what I do so they think its cool.
All the guys that have seen it love it. Of course.
Next step is getting my tattoo.
The wonderful *
Jaycee-Star is going to be drawing the horse for it!

I'm very happy that I'm finally getting it done. Its been such a long time coming. And my brother is still going to take me to get it done, he even said he'll get something done with me. I love my brothers more then anything.
If anyone actually followed all of that I give you props.